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Not sure why, but I did
I think I made a friend at college, but the thing is, she's probably about 6 years younger than me, and it makes me... quite... I don't know, sad?

I makes me feel old. It upsets me to know I can't relate to most people my own age. People around my age have already gotten their college degrees and have settled into their careers and, well, live like "real" adults.

I'm 24 (almost 25) and I still feel mentally 19/20 most of the time. I still feel as though I am discovering myself and I'm worried I will never catch up to my peers. I feel as though I'm still young enough to enjoy college life, but I'm going to be pushing 30 in 5 years. I'm scared life will remain the same and the older I get, the scarier it becomes.

I just feel very awkward becoming friends with somebody who is my younger brother's age. It sucks to know that I'm 24 and still relate to an 18 year old, it really makes me feel as though I'm doing something wrong in life.
I believe I am, actually. I'm doing something incredibly wrong and I don't know how to fix it.

I want to transfer to a four year university, and I will probably have to live in student apartments and/or dorms due to transportation purposes. I really hope I can be roomed with somebody my own age (if we need roommates) because I'm scared of being housed with a bunch of 18 year olds. By then I'll be 25/26.

I regret not going to college years ago...


Aug. 31st, 2018

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Nov. 12th, 2017

Ten Count is ending in a few days and idk how I’m going to survive.

For 3 years Ihave had TC to look forward to almost every month. Now it’s gone and I no longer have anything to distract me from my horrible life.

Tge ending doesn’t even look satisfying, from spoilers I’ve seen.

Damn it.

It’s like all my interests disappeared and tge one thing I had left was this manga.

I don’t wanna so anything. My life sucks and this was the only thing keeping me going, as pathetic as that sounds.

What’s the point of doing anything anymore? I don’t know what to do, I sound so ridiculous but, honestly, this is hard. My life is awful, and???? What now????

what sucks the most is seeing my friends upset about it. I hate seeing them upset and this is hurting all of us, agh. Not the fact that its ending, but the fact that the company+author told us the week of release, out of the blue, that this is going to be the final chapter— and its only 20 pages and doesn’t seem that well done.

Ugh. I defended this manga for YEARS and this is what we get?